you all make burning in hell seem like it’s not so tough

hell is in turmoil and we all know it, the trouble is none of us know what to do. hell is what we call our suite, and what used to be our big group of mischievous friends that would come over and, with the risk of sounding redundant, raise hell.

but things have happened to us, and we've all calmed down. we've become less of hellions. and we've been disjointed. though it could definitely be traced back to a lot of understandable reasons, there's nothing we can do about those things now. and instead of dealing with it, little sects have arisen, and though we can't ignore it's happening none of us even bring up the problem outside of our own little sect.

at this point it feels like trying to fix a political system. there are too many factions, and different people with different opinions. there's no easy solution, but we need to start the discussion. because whether we feel like we can show it anymore or not, we still love each other.

i feel like this happens to a lot of groups of friends, but we were brought together for a reason: we're all fucking weird. not that everyone doesn't have their little quirks and that we're special because we're weirder than everyone. that's not the point at all. but together we all feel like we can be our weirdest, and over break none of us really felt at home. even though hell had already been going through issues.

before we got here and met each other,we had all had our own issues with being socially awkward, or whatever it was. i remember hearing one of my friends go on and on about how much happier he was since he had been here with us, and one of my best friends used to feel anxious in most social situations but now it's one of those things she doesn't have to deal with. and i know on my part, i don't have to feel that way around these people. or, at least, i didn't. and now it's almost an issue of, can we all be together without worrying about when someone leaves will the dialogue change to trash talking that person, or even just the worry of a feeling of tenseness when we're all with each other.

and i'm sorry this probably wasn't relevant or something that mattered to anyone else, but at this point i needed to say it to someone. ill try to be more interesting and less long-winded next time.